Sorry to be so open with you guys today but fuck, I wanna get laid!!! I'm so deprived of sex over here. I've really been considering hitting up one of the cute guys I matched with on tinder, but half of them are across the globe and even if I met up with someone, I'd be so afraid they'd get me sick. FUCK OFF CORONA.
I can't even lie to you guys, I'm not that afraid of getting sick. Where I live, things are almost as they were before this virus shit. I guess I'm just afraid of any form of intimacy at all right now. This is what I get for hating my body. I'm too afraid of anyone looking at me. I'm three hours into a fast. Coffee and water only for as long as I can endure it. That's the plan for now. Because pretty soon I will have to start living life as I used to, but this time I want to enjoy it more. I want people to look at me and just want a piece. The good news is that if I can lose only ten pounds, I'd be back where I was only months ago. I can do that in a week or two, easy peasy! Lots of water and leg workouts until then. Oh yeah isn't that weird? I'm finally going to try to exercise everyday. I'm so light headed right now. Think I need to quit the nicotine like I'm quitting food. But everything's just one big addiction. Everyone's addicted to something. My brain loves nicotine and the feeling of hatred after a late-night binge I guess! But no more binges. Just thin limbs and looking pretty. I want to be pretty.
I can't even lie to you guys, I'm not that afraid of getting sick. Where I live, things are almost as they were before this virus shit. I guess I'm just afraid of any form of intimacy at all right now. This is what I get for hating my body. I'm too afraid of anyone looking at me. I'm three hours into a fast. Coffee and water only for as long as I can endure it. That's the plan for now. Because pretty soon I will have to start living life as I used to, but this time I want to enjoy it more. I want people to look at me and just want a piece. The good news is that if I can lose only ten pounds, I'd be back where I was only months ago. I can do that in a week or two, easy peasy! Lots of water and leg workouts until then. Oh yeah isn't that weird? I'm finally going to try to exercise everyday. I'm so light headed right now. Think I need to quit the nicotine like I'm quitting food. But everything's just one big addiction. Everyone's addicted to something. My brain loves nicotine and the feeling of hatred after a late-night binge I guess! But no more binges. Just thin limbs and looking pretty. I want to be pretty.