This morning when I woke up, I was thinking about how I got so stoned last night and ate way too much junk. I hate myself for it but I'm doing a fast today. And tomorrow. And the next day. Pretty much for as long as I can before I can't anymore. I'm really starting to hate the word "can't." We can do whatever the fuck we want, right? This mindset is also just coming from my mom, who tells me, "you can always do something until you say that you can't do it. And even after you say you can't, you CAN still do it, you'd just be less likely to." I like to believe that's the truth (sorta.) Why don't we start setting goals and tell ourselves that we CAN do and we WILL do it? It sounds so lame, but I think it's pretty smart. Here, I'll go first: I CAN smoke a fat joint and I CAN stop eating and I CAN lose weight and I WILL like myself eventually. Aren't you bored of reading about my eating disorder at this point? I know you are because I'm tired of writing about it!
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July 2018
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