I am trying my hardest to keep a positive mind these days. A lot of things are starting to really get real in life and I am just so unprepared for it all. I also turned 20 recently. Nothing feels different. Everything's still pretty hard but like I said, I've been trying to see the bright side of everything, even when there really isn't one. Things will look up soon, right? I'm super broke, my bank account currently sits at $0.87. How exciting. I did get a job, but my interview was weeks ago and they only told me about it the other day. But I'm going back home ! That's what I'm really excited about, I just need to figure out my living situation lol. See how messy my life is?
I guess I didn't tell you guys I left my city for a couple of months. But I'm returning early next week and I am so not prepared. I've got a few days before I leave to try and make some extra cash to get myself prepared. I've considered sugar daddy's but I pussy out every time I get to a sign up page. My sixteen year-old self would be laughing at that. I was a little more gutsy back then. I also just don't find the idea of sleeping with someone for money to be of interest anymore. Funny how I say that like I've actually ever slept with someone before. Still a virgin at twenty, guys! But who cares really. I don't know why I'm telling you this. Does it really matter at all what I you? You still have no clue who I am.
I wonder when this blog will finally waste away. Will I always return here on random nights to spill a little about myself? Does anyone still read this blog? It says some of you are still around. If you're reading this, thank you for stopping by. I feel like the majority of people who find this blog don't care to comment, but on days when there are comments, they're always fun to read no matter how mean they could be. I think the anonymity helps the mean things not sting so much. Sometimes I laugh at them. Maybe I'm just a little bonkers or maybe it's just funny to read the mean messages and comments people send to me because they really don't have anything better to do than to judge someone they hardly know anything about. Anyways, leave a comment.
I'll post again before my trip. Someone smoke a blunt for me, I haven't smoked in a good minute. rip. :-/
I guess I didn't tell you guys I left my city for a couple of months. But I'm returning early next week and I am so not prepared. I've got a few days before I leave to try and make some extra cash to get myself prepared. I've considered sugar daddy's but I pussy out every time I get to a sign up page. My sixteen year-old self would be laughing at that. I was a little more gutsy back then. I also just don't find the idea of sleeping with someone for money to be of interest anymore. Funny how I say that like I've actually ever slept with someone before. Still a virgin at twenty, guys! But who cares really. I don't know why I'm telling you this. Does it really matter at all what I you? You still have no clue who I am.
I wonder when this blog will finally waste away. Will I always return here on random nights to spill a little about myself? Does anyone still read this blog? It says some of you are still around. If you're reading this, thank you for stopping by. I feel like the majority of people who find this blog don't care to comment, but on days when there are comments, they're always fun to read no matter how mean they could be. I think the anonymity helps the mean things not sting so much. Sometimes I laugh at them. Maybe I'm just a little bonkers or maybe it's just funny to read the mean messages and comments people send to me because they really don't have anything better to do than to judge someone they hardly know anything about. Anyways, leave a comment.
I'll post again before my trip. Someone smoke a blunt for me, I haven't smoked in a good minute. rip. :-/