Well hello! It's been such a long time since I've written anything here and I miss it. I do want to start writing more frequently so if you've been waiting to see more, it's finally happening.
I wanted to write about a lot of the things that have happened to me since we've last talked but I don't want to think about that stuff today. Maybe I'll just write about a couple things. What I'll say for now is, I'm not good but I'm not really bad either. Life's okay. Not great, but it's okay. I'm meeting up with someone this week who I was once a little close with. We're just grabbing coffee I think and talking a bit. I don't think it'll turn into anything again but I still get anxious just thinking about it. I really loved that guy, I still do. And it's just going to be so strange seeing him again after so many months. But I think it'll go just fine and I'm not going into this looking for anything at all because I don't expect he'd want to. He's the one who hurt me, I just need to keep reminding myself that and maybe that will make things easier. We just need to be friends. I'm not looking for the rest.
I haven't hung out with anyone in weeks. I feel so isolated but I keep telling myself that if none of my friends are inviting me to hang out or even just shoot me a text once in awhile, they don't want me around. And if that's the truth then I definitely do not need them around. So this solitude thing is a bit depressing to me. But it's also been pretty nice. I've been writing more and drawing, reading more books, playing some music when nobody's around to hear me. It's not all bad, it's actually a really nice way of the universe giving me time to work on myself! Improve, learn, blah blah blah. I appreciate it.
I also have been looking into some more ways I can put myself out there career-wise. As in acting and singing. I know that sounds like every person's dream ever, but I'm getting way more serious about it now. Don't worry, I'm not leaving the blog yet. I'm still researching how to even get started in those areas. But until I book my first audition (or even after that!) or play my first big gig in front of a large crowd of strangers, I'm not going anywhere. In fact, maybe I'll write about a bit of that here, give you guys a peek into that life as well. I think it'll be great. I'm nowhere even close to an audition but like I said, I'm doing a lot of research on how I can get that stuff started. It's pretty exciting to be honest!
I think that's all for now. I'll definitely write up something interesting tomorrow. I've still got a lot I haven't said obviously, and this is the first post in months so I kind of owe it. Talk soon. Much love, you strangers! xoxo
I wanted to write about a lot of the things that have happened to me since we've last talked but I don't want to think about that stuff today. Maybe I'll just write about a couple things. What I'll say for now is, I'm not good but I'm not really bad either. Life's okay. Not great, but it's okay. I'm meeting up with someone this week who I was once a little close with. We're just grabbing coffee I think and talking a bit. I don't think it'll turn into anything again but I still get anxious just thinking about it. I really loved that guy, I still do. And it's just going to be so strange seeing him again after so many months. But I think it'll go just fine and I'm not going into this looking for anything at all because I don't expect he'd want to. He's the one who hurt me, I just need to keep reminding myself that and maybe that will make things easier. We just need to be friends. I'm not looking for the rest.
I haven't hung out with anyone in weeks. I feel so isolated but I keep telling myself that if none of my friends are inviting me to hang out or even just shoot me a text once in awhile, they don't want me around. And if that's the truth then I definitely do not need them around. So this solitude thing is a bit depressing to me. But it's also been pretty nice. I've been writing more and drawing, reading more books, playing some music when nobody's around to hear me. It's not all bad, it's actually a really nice way of the universe giving me time to work on myself! Improve, learn, blah blah blah. I appreciate it.
I also have been looking into some more ways I can put myself out there career-wise. As in acting and singing. I know that sounds like every person's dream ever, but I'm getting way more serious about it now. Don't worry, I'm not leaving the blog yet. I'm still researching how to even get started in those areas. But until I book my first audition (or even after that!) or play my first big gig in front of a large crowd of strangers, I'm not going anywhere. In fact, maybe I'll write about a bit of that here, give you guys a peek into that life as well. I think it'll be great. I'm nowhere even close to an audition but like I said, I'm doing a lot of research on how I can get that stuff started. It's pretty exciting to be honest!
I think that's all for now. I'll definitely write up something interesting tomorrow. I've still got a lot I haven't said obviously, and this is the first post in months so I kind of owe it. Talk soon. Much love, you strangers! xoxo